I went to college last week. Met my HOD and went to the beach. It was so peaceful!
I was suprised to see that I wasnt bored at all, though i was alone there, without any company. I ended up recollecting memories as I walked through the same old streets.
Its so odd, that time I had so many friends I could count on. In fact, I used to hang out with different groups, and was always torn between them. The contrast now is so striking. Some of my friends are in Bangalore, the rest doing their higher studies.
World now is so different. Definition of "Friends" has itself changed! I have many friends in office too, in fact people envy me for having so many friends. I stay with my college friends, and I know a couple of friends in this city who are from college. None of them are people I can depend upon. None who have the spirit and enthusiasm as my people back at skal. Each one has set ideas about life and de Everyone is either already committed or looking out for a companion. Those committed prefer each other's company all the time, and in due course I only have to adjust to accomodate them and their love interests into all activities. Ufff!!
Generally such things are felt by people who are not in a relationship. But I realised today that is not true. Even being in one does not stop me from missing my friends. I still would love to do those things I did last year and even in college.
But I guess its more about accepting that my friends are moving ahead in life. Eventually we all will be settled and will place our families above friends. They have just taken the step, and I am just angry that someone else is going to be above me. I am not important, or equally important anymore! Noone will miss me!! Noone will care about me!!! Noone, none of those friends whom I have spent such great times with!!!!
I dont care about the whole world missing me. I care about my friends not caring about me. I love to be wanted. I want to be missed.
Guess I always felt this way, maybe everyone does. It's just that it is difficult to admit.
I dont miss anyone in particular.
I dont miss home so much.
I dont miss childhood.
I miss college!
1 comment:
You don't miss anyone in particular??
Anyways its not true that people aren't missed just cos someone is in a relationship. It might change if both are in the same place. :D But, even with them, I am pretty sure, they will always be there, when you need them.
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